Damion, I like it. I like the schizophrenic stream-of-consciousness feel. It gives the piece an immediacy, an urgency, that poetry or prose with a plot cannot attain.
Couple things, if you don't mind:
Watch your grammar, spelling, punctuation. Again, I know you're going for a "stream of consciousness, edge-of-insanity" ethos, but keep in mind that it's easier for the reader to feel that with you if the nuts and bolts aren't a distraction. Couple examples: First line: "I feel death and dumb." If that's what you intend, great. If you intend "deaf and dumb," you might want to edit it.
It strikes me now that I can't view your piece while typing feedback, so I'm going from memory. At one point, you had "there" when you meant "their." Just give a quick glance at your "there, their" instances and your "it's, its," or your "to, two, too" instances etc.
Finally, early on in the piece, you have some "stock stuff," so to speak -- i.e. I wish I was someone else, I hate the way they laugh at me, etc. It got really, really good when you got to the part about holding a pistol in your hand. It's a concrete image, and it's powerful. It's a good example of "showing" emotion instead of "telling" emotion. You might want to think about getting the reader more quickly to that point in the piece. Maybe whack an early sentence? Tighten some stuff up early?
Just suggestions, and feel free to ignore me. I can be a pedantic twit sometimes. (Sorry if I sound that way now.) Either way, I liked this, and thank you for posting it.